red wine and good friends.

i love red wine, just saying. also tonight kh came over and i told her what actually happened finally. telling people actually makes me feel better. it's a release. i am an honest person and i don't like having to hide behind things. i think i'm most proud of myself for that in this situation. i know what i did was wrong, but i can't change it so i have to accept it. i ran for 3 months and i was forced to face it. and i think that is the best thing that could happen to me. i'm not afraid to tell you that yeah, i screwed up. it was wrong but i can't take it back. and i've beat myself up about it every single day for 3 months. i know it was wrong, it's done and i've learned from it. nothing left to do but move on and face the consequences.