ladies night.

LG and CW are almost here and I'm so excited. I am deathly homesick and in dire need of people from home. I'm in a better mood today, I did fuck all except go to the gym and clean which sucks because I have lots of homework still but hopefully they'll leave at a decent time tomorrow and I can get lots done.
Anyways I gotta gooo byeee.

you find out who your friends are

I'm probably being immature right now but I'm actually really quite upset. I'm just being stupid and whatever because I sat at home all night because tomorrow LG and CW are coming but I'm upset because I guess I never really let it go. The night that NB and JP left me at bo's really upset me. I'm not mad about it, but it's something I won't just forget if that makes sense. And JP was supposed to be coming here this weekend with them and now she's not. And tonight she's conveniently out with DK and PD and JS and AM and all of them. And this sounds stupid but those are MY friends(well the boys haha) and it's not that she's with them that bothers me. It's that she won't hang out with them with me but she will with JS.
I am being stupid but it just bothers me that she convinced me to go to DK's then  ditched me and never came because she's not friends with them and doesn't like hanging out with them and now she's there with JS.
FUCK I just hate fucking girls. And I hate RD people because this is what they do. We're not fucking sixteen. Grow up. You don't need to get loser pissed six fucking days a week. Get a fucking real life and do something with it. AHHH. FUCK FUCK FUCK I'm so annoyed.

culture.

I'm going to New Orleans in March and I am sooooo unbelievably excited. It's getting so close and I cannot wait. It's going to bee incredible. B and I are looking at things to do while we're there (obviously via bbm since I'm 4 hours away) and it looks so cool.
I think she wants to go to the zoo and the aquarium which I think would be cool and I said I'd like to go to a jazz club one night and I'd actually really like to go to a plantation. I know that sounds kind of silly but I'm a major history junkie and I just love that kind of stuff. I'm in an American South history class right now and the culture is just so rich. We don't have that here... everyone just kind of blends into one "no one knows what the f our culture is" culture.

cue rant.

Here is something I don't understand:
First, smoking is fucking disgusting. Second it's like minus 1000 outside, why on earth are oyu standing outside smoking a disgusting cigarette that is killing you as you inhale and freeze? I don't understand how when it's winter people don't just quit smoking. I mean I don't really understand why you'd smoke ever but at the same time I get it's an addiction and that's why in the summer I semi-understand. But like in the winter... it's just gotta be so cold. I can't imagine spending more time outside then I have to.

I wish I was cold as stone.

I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time.

busy bee.

I got the job today. yay me! Now I'm just trying to figure out my life. I know things are going to be busy so I will have to be very organized and work really hard when I have days off. I need to have more productive hours. I'm watching the hockey game and I've actually been studying (usually I pretend I'm studying and watch more hockey than actually studying).
The thing about being in social sciences is that I always have something I could be doing. I always have readings or a paper to research for, or a group project, or a test to be studying for. There's never really any time I have to just take a break.
JP and LG and CW are coming here this weekend so I want to accomplish lots tonight and tomorrow and Saturday during the day. They are only coming sat night because LG has tryouts tomorrow and sat during the day. I also need to clean and do laundry.
I'm very happy about this job thing because a) I really like serving and b) I am so broke it's not even funny. Plus it's something else for me to do. And I know it sounds silly but like just knowing I have a job now forces me to be productive because I can't just be like "oh I'll do it later". I only have so much time. It's also something to get my mind remotely off school for a little bit and stop stressing for a few hours.
Anyways, I should probably get back to studying. I'd like to finish this chapter of social psych and finish my history chapter and either one more history chapter or one nas chapter.

winning.

What a day, what a day. I hate the gym in January because so many people make it a 'resolution' to get in shape this year. And honestly, K and I just chirp. I mean good for you for getting into the gym but really, give it two weeks (end of January) and you'll give up. Gym's love this. They give deals in January so people will buy a yearly membership that they will use for 3 weeks and never come again so despite this lowered price, they are making sick flow off of you.
K keeps saying he wants to make a shirt that says, "give up, you're going to quit in a week or two so get out of my gym now". bahahaha it's rude but it's so true. The gym is always busiest in January and it's so flustering. On the plus side, in the weather, people haven't been going to the gym as much... winning. haha I am going to bed now.

tears stream down my face.

Blair to Chuck:
Just because we can't be together doesn't mean I won't love you.

good luck.

I had an interview today and I got a second interview. I haven't really told anybody about it because I want to be sure I get the job before I tell people. It was at Moxie's and I actually really like the girl that has interviewed me. She seems really nice and actually helpful as a manager. Anyways I hope it goes well =)

I miss you, you know.

May be surrounded by a million people,
I still feel all alone.

truth101.

I am seriously such a bitch, but fuck I am funny.