Thursday, August 23, 2012

Six times two.

JP and PD broke up today. They said it's for good and both seem pretty okay with it. To me it seems nuts that you're just okay with something like that. Number twelve and I have been talking lots and I am just the exact opposite.
I mean I get if you aren't all in what is the point. But I've never not been all in. The only boy I've actually dated is number twelve and I have always loved him. Tonight I was like it was really good to see you and he's like you too, can we please hang out for longer before you go back to school?
I was just blown away because I want that but he says things sometimes that I just shake my head at because I know he's scared.

Silly girl falling in love.

I am so incredibly head over heels in love with that boy.

Fuckkkk

I'm going to rage on someone. I worked until 1030 and worked again at 515. I've been up since 430 somebody just give me a fucking coffee.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Tired of the in between.

You see the thing is, I want us to be over. I want to be with someone that loves me back. And I know he loves me, I do. But the issue is that it's him. It's always him. More than two years later it's him. It's not that I don't want to move on, it's that I can't.