criminal minds.

you've seen bad stuff right??... how long until you close your eyes without seeing it?

I shall believe.

Just know that you aren’t the only one. Truth is, I’ve been afraid since day one. Sometimes, I end up thinking the worst happening to us. But all of that goes away when I’m with you. I don’t think about anything else because when I’m with you, I am completely with you. My mind My body. My heart. You become the center of attention. My world. My everything. And it’s in that moment when I’m with you, not thinking about anything but us, that I feel like we’ll get through anything. As long as we’re together. Your presence replaces my feelings of doubt with those of certainty. With you is where I want to be, because that’s where I feel safe. And I want you to feel safe too. Right here. With me. In my arms.

I got tired of hanging on.

if I'm not over you by the time I get to Georgia, then I guess I'll be Alabama bound.
there was a time when I'd do anything for you,
but this time baby, I won't turn around.

some pages turned, some bridges burned but there were lessons learned.

So I saw sunshine on saturday night, his entire family actually. And it annoys me so much how immature he is. Like I just am so confused as to why you can't just let it go. I mean I want good things for you, I hope you're happy but it's like you just want me to have an awful life and be miserable.
And I saw them last night too and that was the whole family like aunt, uncle, grandparents, all of it and not even one said hello. I think it's sad that it's come down to this. I mean my sister tried to be polite and say hello and ask how you're doing and you are rude to her... what is that about? Grow up please.
I guess it doesn't bother me so much because it makes me realize that you care but at the same time it hurts me that you can't just be happy that I've moved on with my life. I mean why do we have to be on bad terms. I don't need or even want us to be good friends again but for a long time, you meant a lot to me and it just seems silly to carry all the issues we had. Clearly there is a reason we aren't in each other's lives but I don't understand what saying hello and asking how the other one is doing and being respectful of each other is going to do.

mondays suck.

I am sooooo tired. I have to work in 25 minutes and I want to die before my day even starts.

back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday, but I realized some bigger dreams of mine.

Also I have a story about sunshine/his family.
Precursor = WTF was I ever thinking?

silly boy.

It really sucks talking to number twelve sometimes because it makes me miss him so much. Like we talked yesterday and friday and like it's just so sucky because then I want to talk to him every day. And it is bad because he says things that make me miss him more. Like I sent him a hug emoticon on his birthday and he's like well now you owe me a real one and I'm going to hold you to that. And stupid little things like that.

bedtime.

Every inch of my body aches. I have slept approximately 9 hours in two days and I am exhausted. Please keep in mind that I worked from 6:30 am yesterday morning until 9:30 last night. I am just beyond exhausted.