Whyyy

I'm wide awake and I have no idea why. I haven't had a night like this in sooo long.

Nice man? Since when?

TH's best friend KH came to calg with us today. I've met him a few times but I don't think we've ever had a conversation sober. He is honestly one of the nicest people I have ever met. Such a sweetheart, soo good to B. and to me the last 2 days.

I need to understand.

I'm really unsure of how I feel about TH. I don't know what to think anymore. I like him as a person most of the time but I don't always like how he treats B. That's important to me.

blah.

I'm home now. It's good and weird and frustrating all at the same time. I've come to the conclusion that I am seriously so lucky to live with K. We never fight, he doesn't nag me (he must seriously hate how much I nag hahaha) we barely even see each other. Here, it's the opposite. Someone's always home, always around. Like I  am never alone here. Maybe that's why I hate it, because I so deeply desire alone time that most people don't understand.
I hate the energy in this place. How hippie/psychic/weird of me but really. I have never loved this house. I don't know what it is. I think part of it is that it's never felt like home. Does that make sense? Like home in the sense that it's not home-y. Like I went to ME's the other night for her momma's birthday and it feels more home-y than here. And my place in leth feels like home, even my place in Calgary. You know, when you walk into a house and you're like it just feels like home.

the good people

Do you ever know people and just hope that when you get married you marry a boy that treats you that well? I hung out with DL and JL tonight and I just forget how much I really love those boys sometimes. Like JL literally opens my door for me and always lets me go first and always makes sure I have what I need before he does. It is hard to find friends likes that.