ZG's text from Thailand

Pulling a classic brooke.. Cramming 3 stressful situations into a retardedly small amount of time
Hahaha she's so right. This is exactly what I do. I finish exams tomorrow then move home tomorrow then leave Saturday morning hahaha. Epitome of how I work my life

one more day.

I have so much cleaning/packing/studying shit to do. Fuckkkk that. I don't want to. I just want to go home today.

see ya stats

Done stats forever, thank gosh. I think I may actually have failed. I've never had a test where I legitimately do not know the answers or understand what the question is asking to even bullshit an answer enough to resemble what he's talking about. It was the worst exam I have ever written, by far.
Oh well, over now. One more exam tomorrow, then off to Costa Rica. yaaaayy

10+2

And every night I lay in bed thinking of you and how the only love I know is true for people and things and places belongs to you.

Library thoughts.

I realized today I don't really like number twelve's sister. It's not that she's not nice to me, she is. I just find it fake sometimes. I don't enjoy her immaturity and love for gossip. That's not who I am. And I tried to get close to her for a long while, to hold onto him in someway. But they aren't the same. And that's the exact opposite of what he wanted. He used to tell me all the things he loved about me. And they were all things completely opposite of her. And I think I understand now wht he meant.
Not that he doesn't love her. It's just different. They have a different relationship than I do with my sisters. I know the boy girl thing changes it and I know my sisters and I are closer than most siblings but I think I just understand it better now.

it's funny how time passing by can change your perspective.

Today is sunshine's birthday. And for the first time, I'm not saying happy birthday. I don't know, I suppose I'm really over that. I have been reminiscing a lot lately, thinking about high school and the person I used to be. I started thinking about the people I was close with and the things we used to do.
I feel so distant from that person. I don't even know how I was that person, or why I thought I needed to be 'good enough' for them. I don't know it just seems like such a different time, 3 years ago. It's crazy to think that this time 3 years ago my Japanese students just went home. Sunshine was in England with AM and his family. I think about AM sometimes, (not AM I usually talk about). I wonder how he is and I hope his life is going well. I think in a lot of ways he got caught up in their appeal. He's nothing like them though. He is a really good, genuine guy.
I think I'm just so happy I moved on. I wish I would have done some things differently, sure. But I really do think that I've become a better person. I was more selfless then, but I was unhealthy. And unhappy. I sometimes feel like my friends are so stagnant. They are complacent. And I understand, I mean if you aren't pursuing something, knowledge, courage, or something worth while, you are going to remain complacent. Especially when you are friends with the same people, in the same town, doing the same thing every weekend.
I should really get to the library and study, I just was thinking. Silly me.

new york, new york.

I want to live in New York. I want to work at a private school. I want to leave this place.

Crash.

In any real city, you walk, you brush past people, and people bump into you. In L.A, nobody touches you. We’re always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other just so we can feel something.