Friday, May 22, 2015
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Reality or another universe?
So I think I won a 25000 dollar trip at teachers' convention?
Either to Peru, Italy, France, or Galapagos. My heart is racing and I don't even know if I believe this is real.
Either to Peru, Italy, France, or Galapagos. My heart is racing and I don't even know if I believe this is real.
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Drama KING.
He is SO dramatic. We were talking tonight because I guess the other day KR started blowing up his phone because she was at the pub by his house and she wanted him to pick her up or something and was like I'm not the girl I was when I worked for you, etc.
While I'm sure he made the story more elaborate than it was, I was laughing so hard because this girl has been in love with him for ages. I honestly admire how hard she's tried to get with him because I am just NOT that forward at all so it was really funny to me.
So he's like THEN a girl she's friends with from the bull is like hey J, I heard you were texting K the other night. And he's like ya she was drunk and texting me. And she's like that's not what I heard. I heard you texted her and offered to help her with her schooling and stuff.
I am DYING at this point in the story. He's like I would NEVER offer to do that for anyone PLUS if I wanted to get with her I would just say, "Hey K, remember all the times you hit on me and I completely shut you down? Well, I've changed my mind. Come over, I want to give it a go".
Like honestly I know him well enough to know he probably played into it a little bit because he LOVES the attention but there's no way he texted this girl and no way he would offer that to anyone. He's like I wouldn't even offer you that. What a stupid way to pick up a girl. Why would I make more work for myself. And in reality, he's right.
So I am of course a shit disturber and texted him tonight like, "look, I know I don't hold the same special place in your heart that K does and you didn't offer to edit my nursing essays, BUT would you please read over my resume for spelling or grammatical issues?"
Smartass says, "Yes, in fact I was just texting people looking for homework!"
So I'm a jerk and we shoot the shit for a bit and then I told him about today. Today kind of sucked because I had to watch people apply for my job. I don't even really want it, but it's safe. It's secure. And it's the security I want.
A friend also got the exact job I wanted which sucks but at the same time, I'd prefer his job to my own so perhaps that's an open door. Who knows. I don't know what I want.
So when I told J that he's like I bet that was pleasant. And I'm like yep dreamy. Your luck might be on the rise.
He's like don't tease me!
Dramatic. That's what he is. I never texted him back but I wanted to be like tease you? You're do dramatic. I already work for you 4 days a week and 5-6 when I'm on break. How much more do you want me to work? You're just upset because I don't work 12 hour days every day now.
While I'm sure he made the story more elaborate than it was, I was laughing so hard because this girl has been in love with him for ages. I honestly admire how hard she's tried to get with him because I am just NOT that forward at all so it was really funny to me.
So he's like THEN a girl she's friends with from the bull is like hey J, I heard you were texting K the other night. And he's like ya she was drunk and texting me. And she's like that's not what I heard. I heard you texted her and offered to help her with her schooling and stuff.
I am DYING at this point in the story. He's like I would NEVER offer to do that for anyone PLUS if I wanted to get with her I would just say, "Hey K, remember all the times you hit on me and I completely shut you down? Well, I've changed my mind. Come over, I want to give it a go".
Like honestly I know him well enough to know he probably played into it a little bit because he LOVES the attention but there's no way he texted this girl and no way he would offer that to anyone. He's like I wouldn't even offer you that. What a stupid way to pick up a girl. Why would I make more work for myself. And in reality, he's right.
So I am of course a shit disturber and texted him tonight like, "look, I know I don't hold the same special place in your heart that K does and you didn't offer to edit my nursing essays, BUT would you please read over my resume for spelling or grammatical issues?"
Smartass says, "Yes, in fact I was just texting people looking for homework!"
So I'm a jerk and we shoot the shit for a bit and then I told him about today. Today kind of sucked because I had to watch people apply for my job. I don't even really want it, but it's safe. It's secure. And it's the security I want.
A friend also got the exact job I wanted which sucks but at the same time, I'd prefer his job to my own so perhaps that's an open door. Who knows. I don't know what I want.
So when I told J that he's like I bet that was pleasant. And I'm like yep dreamy. Your luck might be on the rise.
He's like don't tease me!
Dramatic. That's what he is. I never texted him back but I wanted to be like tease you? You're do dramatic. I already work for you 4 days a week and 5-6 when I'm on break. How much more do you want me to work? You're just upset because I don't work 12 hour days every day now.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Rejuvenate.
Yesterday we went out around Banff hiking. It was so beautiful. I needed that so much. The fresh air, laughter with friends, the beauty of nature. Sometimes we just need a little perspective of the vastness of our world, you know? To recognize what a tiny role we play in the wholeness of the world. That our problems, our frustrations are miniscule. The things we allow to rupture us are really minute. There is so much to be grateful for in the world. There is so much beauty and love and immensity in the world. We should choose to focus more on that. I must choose to focus more on that.
Death is unavoidable; don't let it change you.
Death is Nothing at All
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way of which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name ever be the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
-Henry Scott Holland
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way of which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name ever be the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
-Henry Scott Holland
Flexible.
So last night when I was there we started talking about when work opens again and I'm like did CG hire any bartenders? He's like yeah I think 4. I'm like gooood. He's like why haha? I'm like welll she told me I could be bar tending when we open up. He's like yeah, you could be. And hostessing for 5 minutes and food running. And whatever else we need.
I'm like great so I'm basically going to be on floor is what you're saying?
And he's like maybe, we will see what happens.
And as annoying as that is, he also told me I can have whatever I want there the other day. So I suppose it will be made up to me. I mean I don't want to be on the floor when we open and I saw this coming but at the same time, it's nice to know they value me enough to know I am flexible and will help them in any way possible.
Sunday, May 17, 2015
What would I even say?
Sorry mom and dad. Thanks for paying for 4 of 5 years of school that I'm never going to use! Had a blast though!
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