so please, face it already.

"facing the truth is so much easier than all the time and energy it takes to run from it."

a-z

A. Why my last relationship ended.

We have a whole lot of issues for 19 year olds. It's scary being this in love at such a young age. We both need time to grow and mature and find what we want in life.

B. Favourite band.

I don't think I could pick just one. I'm on a major Hunter Hayes kick and I've been listening to lots of old school country when I'm not listening to 8tracks.

C. Who I like and why I like them.
I was going to say number 12 but I don't really like him. I actually strongly dislike him because I love him.
I don't know the kid but I meet a new dude the other day and he's hot so maybe him?

D. Hardest thing I’ve ever been through.

Sabotaging myself.

E. My best friend.

I don't know if I have a best friend. I used to always think LG was my best friend but we don't really talk much anymore and it's not that I don't love her, I just think our lives are going in different directions. I have a lot of great people in my life that matter to me but as far as a best friend, my sister is probably it.

F. My favourite movie.

The Notebook. (Cliche, I know but I really love it). Or Sex and the City.

G. Sexual orientation.

Straight as a ruler.

H. Do I smoke/drink?

Mm yeah I don't smoke because I think it's gross. I like to party sometimes but I'm much more content to drink casually. You know, a glass of wine or two, or a drink after work.

I. Have any tattoos or piercings?

Pierced ears and one tattoo on my hip.

J. What I want to be when I get older.

I wish I knew. Any suggestions?

K. Relationship with my parents.

I love my parents. We've had our issues, but I love them and I talk to both of them almost every day.

L. One of my insecurities.

I don't know where to start.

M. Virgin or not?

Hahaha.

N. Favourite place to shop at?

I don't have a favourite store. I like my jeans. And I like shoes.

O. My eye colour.

Brown.

P. Why I hate school.

I don't hate school, I actually love school. I love the idea of pursuing knowledge. I love the idea of learning and growing and changing but I realize it's easier said than done.

Q. Relationship status as of right now.

Single and ready to mingle! Haha kidding, I'm single and I'm not entirely sure where I stand with it.

R. Favourite song at the moment.

Storm Warning- Hunter Hayes

Every time I hear your name- Keith Anderson

Someone Like You - Adele

S. A random fact about myself.

You know how most people like to wear bare feet at their house? I hate it. I hate not having socks on. My feet get cold.

T. Age I get mistaken for.

23-28.

U. Where I want to be right now.

Wherever he is. Or on a beach somewhere. Or in Africa at an orphanage/school.

V. Last time I cried.

Last night.

W. Concerts I’ve been to.

Lots. Taylor Swift, Brad Paisley, Carrie Underwood, Jay-Z, Kanye West, Rihanna, Black Eyed Peas, Big and Rich, Rodney Atkins, Emerson Drive, Terri Clark, George Canyon, Rascal Flatts....etc.

X. What would you do if you got pregnant?

"Fall" down the stairs. Actually I have no idea what I'd do. I would flip the fuck out because I am in no way shape or form ready for a child.

Y. Do you want to go to college?

I'm in university and I love it. I can't imagine not getting an education, that's just the way it always was.

Z. How are you?

Ready to go on vacation. I could bitch about a lot of things that I'm unsatisfied with and unhappy about but at the end of the day I'm happy and healthy and really quite lucky. I'm thankful for all I do have.

last class bash.

I suppose I can tell you about my LCB shenanigans now. I can't even believe myself and the ridiculousness that day warranted. I got up, wrote my test and got my lab assignment back. I got 96% and it basically made my day. Then I went to TK's house and started drinking mimosas. Her and SM and I went for lunch and had more drinks, then we went back to TK's house and I drank a 26 of vodka. We went to LCB around 2? Actually to be honest I have absolutely no idea what time we went to LCB at. I do know that when we got there TK and I decided we should probably start double fisting. 

So needless to say, my alcohol consumption for the day included my full day's calories. Then somehow I ended up at RD's house hahaha. The issue is that his mattress was upstairs in the living room.. so basically we had to maneuver it down stairs (while I was in underwear I may add) into his room. 

Somehow, I also lost my id, sweater, and sunglasses. But don't worry, I remember everything else for the day. 

Owie

I had a killer workout yesterday. I actually learned so much from studying for my resistance training final. Today I am sooo sore it's not even funny. My legs are dead and my whole body aches.

It's not going to be easy, it's going to be really hard. But I want that because I want you.

I watched the notebook last night because I'm dumb and enjoy torturing myself.

LCB

I'm such a whore. But fuck I am funny

LCB

I wrote my resistance training final this morning and now I'm going to go celebrate my slackin efforts by gettin drunk. I completely half assed my program and got 24/25 bahahahaha goo me!

Silly boys with girlfriends

I wonder if DK and his girlfriend broke up. Him and I chatted all last night and this morning the way that we used to. We haven't done that in soo long! It's kind of nice. I missed the kid. He turned into a major douche for awhile there.

love like it's a story, love like there's going to be a happy ending.

“I wish we could sometimes love the characters in real life as we love the characters in romances. There are a great many human souls whom we should accept more kindly, and even appreciate more clearly, if we simply thought of them as people in a story.”

-G.K. Chesterton

words of the wise.

-  Don't ever take a fence down until you know the reason it was put up.

-  I say that a man must be certain of his morality for the simple reason that he has to suffer for it.

-  Poets have been mysteriously silent on the subject of cheese.

-  The people who are the most bigoted are the people who have no convictions at all.

-  I do not believe in a fate that falls on men however they act; but I do believe in a fate that falls on them unless they act.

-  A stiff apology is a second insult... The injured party does not want to be compensated because he has been wronged; he wants to be healed because he has been hurt.

 -  "An inconvenience is an adventure wrongly considered."

-  "Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of readiness to die."

-  "I regard golf as an expensive way of playing marbles."

-  "Love means to love that which is unlovable; or it is no virtue at all."

-  “Because children have abounding vitality, because they are in spirit fierce and free, therefore they want things repeated and unchanged. They always say, "Do it again"; and the grown-up person does it again until he is nearly dead. For grown-up people are not strong enough to exult in monotony. But perhaps God is strong enough to exult in monotony. It is possible that God says every morning, "Do it again" to the sun; and every evening, "Do it again" to the moon. It may not be automatic necessity that makes all daisies alike; it may be that God makes every daisy separately, but has never got tired of making them. It may be that He has the eternal appetite of infancy; for we have sinned and grown old, and our Father is younger than we.” 

-  “There is the great lesson of 'Beauty and the Beast,' that a thing must be loved before it is lovable.”

-  “One sees great things from the valley, only small things from the peak.” 

-  “Shall I tell you the secret of the whole world? It is that we have only known the back of the world. We see everything from behind, and it looks brutal. That is not a tree, but the back of a tree. That is not a cloud, but the back of a cloud. Cannot you see that everything is stooping and hiding a face? If we could only get round in front--” 

-  “Jesus promised his disciples three things—that they would be completely fearless, absurdly happy, and in constant trouble.”

-G.K. Chesterton

never.

Follow your heart and never look back.

Salt water.

I had a bit of a breakdown last night after work and I'm crying again right now. I'm just so frustrated and stressed and sad and I want to crawl into my own little world and never come back.