I couldn't agree more.

It always does.

In case my song lyrics weren't enough it's starting to kick in again. I'm starting to be sad and it's hitting me. I should have known. It's different though. 

And yes, I still love you too.

It never goes away, does it? 

It's going to feel like this forever. 

I told myself don't get attached.

This is when the feeling sinks in, I don't wanna miss you like this. Come back, be here. 

This is falling in love in the cruelest way. This is falling for you and you are worlds away. 

But you're in London and I break down 'cause it's not fair that you're not around. 

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry.

Maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame. Maybe it's you and your sick need to give love and take it away. 

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.

Today I did pretty well on my reminiscent drive back to RD. I listened to some music because it felt right and I wanted to see how I would react. How incredibly fucked am I to ~test~ myself and my feelings. I did well except for a few songs. Austin by Blake Shelton of course got me and Need You Now by Lady Antebellum got me. I almost lost it during All Too Well by Taylor Swift too. You know it's cruel that I do this to myself but maybe in some fucked up way it's therapeutic. You know, realizing how strong I am now compared to then when I bawled through the entire CD and the entire drive home.

I cannot explain how much I love this.

“Don’t be so vain to think that you ruined me, that you wrecked me, destroyed me. I am the only one who has the power to do that. I loved you, and I ruined myself, I wrecked myself, I destroyed myself. And I will keep doing so for as long as I am breathing.” 
— Amanda Helm, "The Day I Learned That I was Broken"