something to think about.

I've been having the most fucked up dreams lately. The other night I had a dream about sofaking. I dreamt that KH was dating him and somewhere we saw each other and he started talking to me. First, I find it hilarious because KH would never ever date him hahahah. But it was so weird because he started speaking to me and I was quite unsure of how to respond. He said he wanted to talk later about everything and he handled it poorly. Then KH started fucking loosing it on me. And she was dropping every name in the book and telling me that I couldn't possibly do this again.
I told her I wasn't doing anything I was just trying to resolve some issues that had been long held in the quietest place of my head and heart. Which is true, if I'm perfectly honest, I would love to have a conversation with sofaking to just understand how things happened and why. I know it's unrealistic but I think that even though it doesn't always upset me, it's something I will never forget.

The next dream I had was really awful though. That is the one that stuck with me. I dreamt that some guy was shooting me in the face with a gun. As he pulled the trigger, I opened my eyes.

Last night I dreamt again about some guy chasing me with a gun. It was so scary because he was trying to kill me and I don't know why. I don't really understand what this means. I just googled what it means when you have a gun in your dream. These are the two responses:
1) you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You feel victimized in a situation or that you are being targeted. 
2)To dream that you are shot or being shot at represents a form of self-punishment that you may be subconsciously imposing on yourself. You may have done something that you are ashamed of or are not proud of. If you are shot and come back as a different person, then it indicates that  you need to start fresh. You want to wipe the past away and literally become a new person.

This is what it means to be killed, or try to be killed: 
1) To dream that you have been killed suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. The dream refers to drastic changes that you are trying to make. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of the old parts and old habits. Alternatively, the dream represents feelings of being let down or betrayed by someone in your waking life. You are feeling overwhelmed, shocked and disappointed.
2) To see a killer in your dream suggests that an essential aspect of your emotions have been cut off. You feel that you are losing your identity and your individuality. Alternatively, this dream may represent purification and the healing process. You are standing up for yourself and putting a dramatic end to something
3)To dream that you are murdered suggests that some important and significant relationship has been severed. You are trying to disconnect yourself from your emotions. The dream may also be about your unused talents. 

Never forget

Life is hard sometimes.

This is one convo I needed to see

She gets her happy ending.

I always loved Carrie Bradshaw. 

Story of my life.