I don't always want to do it alone.

They say you find the right person at the right time. I want to believe that. I do. But sometimes you just get so damn tired of being alone. 

Heart like mine.

D is such a difficult human. He's so private and reserved about things. We've spent so much time together in the last week. He's shared so much with me. He's probably one of if not the best friend I've ever had. I know that I've thought I had friends like him before... Friends that would do for me all the things I would do for them. But I don't think anyone has ever really been there for me like this. He really is that person. He has done for me all the things I'd do for others. I mean, he picked me up at 3am and took the time to make sure I was really okay and had everything I needed.

He takes care of me in such a genuine way but makes fun of me and makes me laugh at the same time. On Wednesday, he took me to a Vietnamese restaurant and made fun of how white I am hahaha and then we laughed forever sharing stories of his silly youth and our ridiculous  crazy relationship stories. Even though I try to pay or to do things for him, he doesn't let me. 

Yesterday we went to his house and took a team nap. He gave me the option of the couch or the spare room.  So he offered me anything I wanted and turned on the tv for background noise and let me nap on his couch. Then he took me for coffee and wouldn't let me pay even though he was driving. He's just so good to me and it's so nice to have someone like this. I don't know if I truly believed friends like this existed. I don't even know if I believed I really treated people like this, or if I really go out of that way as much as I think I do. Until now. 

My heart yearns for a love that's not unrequited.

I'm watching the Proposal and it makes me so sad sometimes to be alone. I would really like to find love. 

Life is never what you think it will be.

A month ago, if you had asked me how all of this would've played out.. I never would have said like this.