I will always love you.

I drove by his house on my way home tonight. He got accepted to Texas... I'm proud of him. I would like to speak to him. I'd like to tell him in person what I wrote earlier in my blog about his mistake, our love, and my forgiveness. I just want him to know I'm still me. 

Who will you choose to be?

I really hate when people want to talk about sofaking. Tonight TE was like going on about him and his gf and how they're gonna get married and he's so hot blah blah. And I'm just like can we talk about literally anything else in the world? I just want to say ya they're super happy only he assaulted me and she accused me of lying about getting assaulted. Like I'm really sorry but I don't want to have a chat about them and their life. I want to say that happened but I just wouldn't do that. I can't. That's not who I am. I think that's what bothers me most about it; the fact that following an assault I was accused of making it up. I believe in integrity and I believe in the best of people. That situation was a pretty big test of character. 

I am so unbelievably proud of you.

Sometimes I realize that what I miss the most about number twelve is that he was my best friend. I think that's what the hardest part it. Yes I love him and that's never going to change. But I loved him before I was in  love with him and I think that's what makes it hard.
I spent two days with his sister and she was like you just need to completely keep him out of your life. And I told her that's so much easier said than done. That boy is my very best friend. I trust him more than I trust anybody else. He's the one that I want to tell my day about. When something exciting happens, I want him to know. When I'm sad about something, he's the one I want to cheer me up.
When I found out on Sunday that he was accepted to University of Texas, I just wanted to call him and tell him how excited I am, how proud of him I am.

I'm grateful for good friends.

Been there, done that.

Dear S,
If anything bad ever happens to me and you see this, please give number twelve access to it. I think it's important for him to know just how much I loved him.
Thanks,
B.

See how my life and music has changed since March 2012.

My iTunes sucks now because it's so new so this should be interesting. 
Here's a quiz type thing I found from another girl who's blog I follow. Basically you hit shuffle and for each song that comes up, you answer these questions in order.
If my life was a movie, this would be the soundtrack:

Opening Credits
How to Save a Life- The Fray

Waking Up
Cruise- Florida Georgia Line

First Day Of School
Red- Taylor Swift

Falling In Love
The A Team- Ed Sheeran

Losing Your Virginity
Can't Fight the Moonlight- Leann Rimes hahahahahahahahaha
Breaking Up
Sad Beautiful Tragic- Taylor Swift

Prom
Sorry on the Rocks- Kelleigh Banen

Deep Thought
New Favourite Memory- Brad Paisley

Mental Breakdown
Over- Blake Shelton

Driving
Stronger than Me- Connie Britton

Flashback
Do You Think About Me- Carrie Underwood

Getting Back Together
Just a Dream- Carrie Underwood

Wedding
Camouflage- Brad Paisley

Birth Of First Child
I Believe I can Fly- R. Kelly bahahahahahaha

Learning Life Lesson
Temporary Home- Carrie Underwood

Final Battle
Cry With You- Hunter Hayes

Death
Mine- Taylor Swift

Funeral 
Everything Has Changed- Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran

End Credits
Been There, Done That- Luke Bryan

Carrie Bradshaw.

She was a smart girl, until she fell in love. 

You.

You were my best friend, my best friend that I told everything to. And then you were just gone.