if that's not love then i don't know what is.

how does somebody just capture your soul like that? your happiness, your entire world is wrapped up in their happiness. i don't understand. i smile at the mere thought of a message from him. he can make me laugh even when i am so incredibly upset. he can make me relax with a few words. never mind his physical presence; that fixes everything. how can someone make you feel okay again, make you feel whole again, make all the problems seem minute now.

i just don't understand.

boys are so stupid. i haven't spoken to him in a month. a fucking month and four days to be exact and now this small conversation and i am happier and smiling and less stressed than i've been in as long as i can remember. this is so stupid. how can a few silly words from a boy make my life feel whole again.

i never knew i could feel that much.

i miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain. it's 2am and i'm cursing your name. so in love that you acted insane;
and that's the way i loved you.

my response, "every single day".

he says, "but did she look back".

never again.

she'll never fall in love, she swears.

it's always about him.

dragon is on her way here right now with some starbucks. i'm sure we'll have a nice long chat in front of the fire on the leather couches. i'm somewhat looking forward to it but i'm somewhat not because i know it's going to make me sad when we start talking about the real things.