lobster.

fuck my life i am soooo sunburnt.
i never ever get sunburnt so i figured, hey, sunscreen isn't necessary.
even after i said, this is dangerous and my father told me to put sunscreen on.
f.f.f. i had to spend the entire day in the shade and doing homework because it hurts to move.
the sun hurts me more than it'd hurt a vampire.
note to self: listen to parents.

divided we stand baby, united we fall.

you could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind.
cause i'm crazy 'bout you baby, crazy.
without you, one night alone is like a year without you baby.
do you have a heart of stone?
can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide.

shredded hashbrowns.

class, check
chiropractor, check.
packed, check.
homework, not check.
ipods, not check.

this is how i feel.

so this is how it ends.
this is where is all goes down.
this is what 'i don't love you feels like'

it ain't exactly what i had in mind, for goodbye.
at a red light, in the sunshine, on a sunday
nothing to say, don't even try
some are coming home, some are leaving town
while my world's crashing down.

bourbon's hitting me hard like a freight train.

why am i such a mess. alllllll the time.
i feel like my entire world is falling apart.

astigmatism.

also i have an astigmatism and it is making everything really really blurry today.

braindead.

i apologize for the anger and profanity in the last few blogs.
i can't focus at all right now. my brain is mush. i am just so unbelievably stressed out that i can't even focus. it's ridiculous in all honesty. everyone is annoying me with the littlest things. i just need to relax. so very bad. i can't read, i can't concentrate. i'm just an absolute mess.
please get me out of here.

one more thing.

fuck you.

big brother.

did i mention big brother won a fucking grand at the casino last night?
prick.

goal.

i am going to avoid going on facebook for the entire two weeks.
that is my goal.

confrontational.

i wish i could be more confrontational. i'm actually kind of choked about last night. it's not like i sat at home alone or anything but it just really frusterates me when people make plans or say WE ARE HANGING OUT NO MATTER WHAT ON SATURDAY and then ditch you. AND don't even have the courtesy to call or text you. like i had a fine night, i went out to a few friends and such but that's not the point. it's just really rude and really frustrating especially when it happens over and over and over. oh well. i am leaving tomorrow and not talking to anyone while i'm gone and i cannot wait.