Saturday, November 29, 2014

K said this to me last night.

"It's like you and J are in a relationship and you just don't know it".

Thursday, November 27, 2014

My favourite Italian/Greek.

Hahahaha so this picture says "I have puppies not children because I'd rather ruin my carpet than my life".
And this is the conversation that followed. I actually just love him hahaha.

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Relax.

I feel a little bit guilty for taking this morning off. I don't like taking days off. It's not in my nature to call in 'sick' for work when I'm not sick. I realized though that as a teacher, sometimes it is important to take mental health days. At about 2 yesterday afternoon I just hit a brick wall. I had zero patience, I was exhausted, felt like garbage. It's like in university I always got a cold for Christmas because I was pushing my body so incredibly hard for so long that the second I eased up, I was sick. I cannot afford to get sick right now. The next few weeks are going to be crazy. I need to start getting organized to move out etc.
The last few days other teachers have been taking a morning or afternoon or day off. We have interviews Thursday and Friday. Thursday will be the longest day ever because I teach all day then have FOURTEEN interviews from 4:30-8. I will be dead. This morning I am going to get a massage, get my eyebrows waxed and possibly get my nails done before I go to school this afternoon.
Sanity as a teacher is imperative. Relative sanity anyways, the more I think about it or speak with others about it, the more they say, "how do you do it? How do you spend 8 hours a day with 20 six year olds?" And some days I don't honestly know the answer.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Anomaly.

He is just so incredibly thoughtful and endearing that I cannot put it into words. He is the epitome of an anomaly. He is a pretentious asshole. His new bathroom has a toilet that has a remote control, bidet, like everything. It's beautiful. The granite floors are GORGEOUS and the tiling in his bathroom is absolutely stunning. He told me it took forever to find the tile because nothing matched his floor and he ended up spending way more than he wanted to but it is actually so incredibly beautiful; definitely worth it. His new "laundry room" is a full bedroom-sized closet with his washer and dryer, shelves for his shoes, all his suits hung beautifully, an island with drawers for his 'casual' clothes and a counter for him (by him, I mean his cleaning lady) to fold his clothes. He specifically said, "I put the washer and dryer in here so I can get away with calling it a laundry room instead of a closet".
When I walked in, I was expecting him to just hand me the jersey and be like see yaa. When I walked in, he's like "DUKE! Look who it is?!" I started to play with Duke and J starts walking up the stairs but pauses and says "you can leave your boots on".  I was just playing with Duke and J was staring at me and I'm like are you waiting for me to follow you and he's like yes! Come upstairs!
 After he showed me his jerseys I'm like are you sure it's okay I take this one? He's like of course!
So we go downstairs and he's telling me all about his renovations. When we went upstairs, he says, "oh I forgot. Remember when you asked me to save wine corks for you? I have been." I find this incredibly endearing because he's a man and men are completely oblivious and I asked him like three months ago to save them for me.
I think the best part of J is that he genuinely cares about me. He lets me into his world. He lets me into his brain and he shows me a part of him that he doesn't show others. He was so incredibly proud when he was showing me his renovations. It was a genuine pride. It's so rare that people genuinely care about others but he does and he makes it so clear that he does. He is just such a good person.
I love that he is a pretentious asshole who chirps me with his wit and at the same time is genuinely concerned about my well-being as a person who offers a kindness that leaves me speechless. He is intelligent and educated both academically and in life experience. He makes me laugh.  He's ambitious and well-dressed and values people. And I value everything about him.

What a darling.

On a scale of 1 to adorable, he gave me a tag-on, never-been-worn Italy jersey to wear tomorrow.

So it's gonna be forever, or it's gonna go down in flames.

I can make the bad guys good for a weekend.

I literally can't even.

His toilet has a remote control. Like are you kidding me.

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Break your heart.

They just don't make men like you.

The other night I went to see him. I took him a bottle of wine for everything he does for me. I just wanted to say thank you.
We started talking and he's like how are you doing? He already knew the answer to the question but I think he was just trying to be supportive and ensure I knew he's here for me. So we talked a bit but I couldn't get into it because I knew that if I did I would've just broke down right there. In fact, I kind of abruptly left his office and when I got into my vehicle I burst into tears. I texted him when I got home and apologized for just leaving but I was going to burst into tears. All he said was, "B, it's okay to cry".

They must be.

"I believe that your soul and my soul are very old friends".