It's nothing new but he's honestly the best and worst. I am accustomed to it now so while he frustrates me sometimes, I've altered my expectations. It's interesting because I've been so busy that I haven't seen him much or spoken to him. And I honestly felt a little bad on Sunday because he ended up having to be there and serve. He's good with that; he doesn't pressure me into talking about it but he's there and makes sure I know it.
He's been making a bit more of an effort to bring things up or have a chat. But yesterday and today were really interesting. He made me Dukey's emergency contact at doggy day care. When he told me, I laughed because that's probably the silliest thing I've ever heard but endearing none the less. He showed me his first day report card with pictures and everything today and he had to fill in my "relationship to dog". We died laughing about all the possibilities he should have written, especially one along the lines of "play thing" and "no strings attached" female friend.
It was nice tonight because I texted him to see if I could visit Dukey and he wasn't home and I hate pressuring him into hanging out but I genuinely think it's just not in his nature to initiate that sort of thing. He is so awkward about that sort of thing. He was like I'm not home and I said okay well it wouldn't be for an hour or two but it's completely okay. And of course he's like no no let me know when you're done. So I did and again he's like I'm on my way home and I'm not busy, it's fine with me if you come over. Which is really his way of saying come over, I'm too stubborn to tell you I'd like to see you and I'm concerned about you.
I went there and we ate chocolate and drank wine and played with the baby and watched soccer. He is honestly just the best friend. And I know I say it over and over but that's the type of relationship I want. It's so silly.
He put all this travel stuff together for me and offered me his men's belt that's a very secretive money pouch. He's just thoughtful like that. He was so concerned I wouldn't have all the things I would need.
It's that sort of stuff that really kills me. I mean of course I would do it for him. It's just like after all of our clashes, struggles, challenges; it's just easy. It's low-key and comfortable and we're friends. That is what I want in a relationship.
