Here goes nothing.

I said something this morning and I can't take it back.
I told D that I wanted to sleep with him which on one hand was a really stupid thing to do and I haven't even looked at my phone because I don't want to see what he says. I'm half praying he says absolutely nothing and we don't talk about it.
On the other hand, I am really proud of myself. The message I sent to him this morning is probably one of the most honest messages I've ever sent. So despite the repercussions, whatever they may be, I am going be proud of myself for saying how I feel.
I am a little stressed but fuck it at the same time. I keep walking past my phone but I flipped it over so I cannot see it.

Silly adults, that behaviour is for kids.

I needed to see this today. Sometimes it's so tough being an adult. I get frustrated when I feel like adults are acting like children which happens more than you think. I get so tired of being hated and spoken about. The gossiping about things that are completely untrue. I sometimes wonder why this consistently happens to me especially in work places with usually with women. And I can honestly see the things I did at the restaurant to at least give off the impression that what they said was true. But here, I've honestly done nothing wrong. I don't think that what I am doing is wrong in any way and that is frustrating. I know who I am and that I just have to keep to myself and hold my head high.

Kind words.

Today I walked out of my classroom as a grade 9 I've never met before was walking in. The first thing she said to me was, "you're pretty". I was so taken aback. To hear someone just say that so confidently. I needed that today. 

I absolutely adore this.

Choose love.

"It's a frightening thought that in a moment you can fall in the type of love that takes a lifetime to get over. " 

-Beau Taplin