Here goes nothing.

I said something this morning and I can't take it back.
I told D that I wanted to sleep with him which on one hand was a really stupid thing to do and I haven't even looked at my phone because I don't want to see what he says. I'm half praying he says absolutely nothing and we don't talk about it.
On the other hand, I am really proud of myself. The message I sent to him this morning is probably one of the most honest messages I've ever sent. So despite the repercussions, whatever they may be, I am going be proud of myself for saying how I feel.
I am a little stressed but fuck it at the same time. I keep walking past my phone but I flipped it over so I cannot see it.