Some days I just think to myself, damn I miss him. And by some days, I mean every single day. I see couples doing things and I wish it was us. I do things with my family or by myself and I wish he was with me.
It's hard because in my head I can consciously explain to myself why he cannot be here right now. I can understand why we need to grow and live and learn to love ourselves.
In my heart I miss him every second of every day. And I have to convince myself over and over to not contact him. I want to so badly.
I need it to be him. I know how stubborn he is and I am trying with everything inside of me to be strong enough. Every day I just want to call him. I want to know how he doing. I want to lay in his arms.
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