i can walk right by your picture in a frame, and not feel a thing but when i hear your name.

okay i have a pathetic confession to make.
i honestly don't even know what it is about him but i still think about sunshine. i've moved on, i'm into someone else but it's not the same. i still wonder how he's doing, what's new in his life, how school is, how life is, how his family is. i wonder about all of it. the new truck, living in calgary, the little ones, what he's doing for summer. and most of the time i can throw these feelings away in an instant because i know i'm better off. and i know that number 12 really loves me and he's so good to me. i know that i'm so much happier and i can't even explain the differences in who i am from who i was to who i've become.
but honestly, his everytime i hear his name it gets me. i get weak in the knees all over and all i can think about is him. i saw that he was on facebook and i had to sign out. that's my being strong. how pathetic is that.

and what's even more pathetic is that no one even has a clue that i still think about him.