so how come i trust him so much.

i'm nervous. and anxious. and worried. and so incredibly excited all at the same time. i'm happy that number twelve and i are talking and he wants me to visit. but at the same time i'm wondering how you go from not speaking for a month to pretending like nothing happened at all. the biggest issue for me is that i don't want to fight about it via bbm. i mean i want to have a real conversation and find out what the heck is giong on. what am i supposed to do if he changes his mind again? i mean sex is great yes but i'm in love with him. that's not just gonna go away. you can't have meaningless sex with the boy you love, you just can't. and maybe i just need to trust that whatever is supposed to happen will and just believe in the power of our love. but at the same time, this is a scary place to be.