At night she lies awake and she wonders, why can't that be me?

And every night I dream that when I wake up it makes sense. I understand. And somehow, tomorrow will be easier.

Atlas Shrugged.

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark. In the hopeless swaps of the not yet, the not quite, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish. In lonely frustration of the life you've deserved but have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It's real. It's possible. It's yours.
-Ayn Rand

It's always about you.

I really like my sister's boyfriend. He treats her well and he has a good job and he makes her happy. But their relationship scares me. It seems like her entire happiness is wrapped up in him. I don't think that's a good thing. He also buys her lots of things which worries me. I love that he wants to spoil her but at the same time I don't want it to be a plan for control.
I am just worried because they can barely spend five minutes apart when he's home. I get that he makes her happy but at the same time it worries me that he's her entire happiness.
I don't know what I'm talking about. Maybe I'm just jealous or something. I just want her to be happy. And I guess it kind of kicked me in the ass to realize that her and I are not always going to be that close. That at some point we're going to have to grow up and apart and live separate lives.

It's always her.

It must be so easy to be the perfect sister.

Your string of lights is still bright to me

Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything and everybody believed in you?

Garth

The thunder rolls, And the lightnin' strikes, Another love grows cold, On a sleepless night.

Stupid girl.

It's funny how after all that I wake up from dreams about you.

Torn between being alone and being lonely.

I am more than mildly fucked. I really don't want a boy in my life right now or anytime soon but I hate seeing happy couples together at the same time. Seeing my sister and TH is so hard sometimes. They're so happy and I mean who doesn't want someone to cuddle with during a movie sometimes. Or wake up next to someone just once out of hundred mornings.

Kate voegele

I won't lie, let's call this what it is: an impatient girl waiting on an empty wish.

Alone.

Being alone isn't the same as being lonely.

No sympathy.

I think it's so funny when people have a conversation on a social networking site aka twitter the. Realize anyone can see it and start trying to take it back. DK and JS are having a conversation about sex and now DK is trying to cover up the fact thy e had sex. Who cares bro? Your new gf with a child? Yeah shitty luck you got an insta-family when you turned into a dick.

more than meets the eye

"Fairy tales are like glass beads in which the world sees a mirror-image of itself."
- Max Luthi

figure it out.

Dear parents of small children,
Please take your small and annoying shithead out of the college library and never bring them back. There is a public library with a children's section for a reason.
Sincerely,
Every student ever.

library again

I'm sitting in the library at rdc right now. I'm trying to attempt working on my Children's Literature. It's such a lame class. But I'm sitting near the window. It's pretty beautiful looking out the window. It's only parking lot but it's raining outside and it's kind of nice.

You're still the one I want for life.

Yesterday mom asked me if I truly thought number twelve was the one I would spend my life with. I said honestly, yes.
It was difficult to say it out loud because I knew how stupid it sounded. How embarrassing some people think I am. How naive they think I am. But he's the one I love, every day. For 4 and a half years.

#gutless

I'm pretty unhappy with some shit at the Rdgcc right now. Like some of the people there are just gutless.

Unconditional love.

Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think of us in return.

I want my tattoo.

Words to live by:
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Lilo and Stitch

I kept saying how much I needed you, but you needed me more.

Even on my weakest day.

I have been drunk/ extremely hungover for approximately 3 days now and I am about done. I'm sooo tired. I hate it. LW and I talked about number 12 today and I just realized like how much I love that kid and miss him. Like I honestly hate the way things played out for us.
Him and I have been hanging out too much in the last few months because I miss him so much.