simple truths.

"be the change you wish to see in the world"

I cannot stress how much...

 I Love:
- my mom, my sister, princess s, daddy, b and c. love love love.
- number twelve
-  chocolate, ice cream, and things that are generally not good for your ass
- red wine
- the feeling after you've worked yourself so hard at the gym you feel like you're gonna be sick
- integrity
- working
- learning. I don't always love everything about school but I definitely love education
- good friends
- my puppies
- clean sheets (I just took my comforter out of the dryer so it's still warm and all my sheets are clean!)
- ncaa basketball (Duke in particular)
- music... I'd say excluding rap but let's be serious yelling about sluts and pimps and shooting people isn't really music
- true religion dark jeans and lulu lemon everything
- one tree hill
- socks and sandals
- expensive high heels that don't hurt your feet but radiate your confidence with a pair of jeans
- people who are so unbelievably strong it's mind blowing (s, that includes you)
- silent strength and courage (silent because they don't show it to most of the world; they're just THAT strong)
- writing
- tswift/ whatever I decide to blast in my vehicle with the windows down like it's rap music
- when things go exactly the way you'd like them to/ planned
-horoscopes
-tears; but only when they make you feel better
-hot tubs (especially with wine)
- humbleness and appreciation
- gerber daisies
- boys (and girls) who do nice things 'just because'
-the concept of love


I Hate:
- people who talk about others behind their back and then call them their best friend the next day
- people who are excessively fake for the wrong reasons (re: to impress someone or fit in)
- the concept of trust
- the concept of love
- seafood
- most of my former friends because they haven't grasped the concept of growing up
- when people do things for recognition instead of the sheer goodness of their heart
- when things go entirely against what you want and feel
- not being in control
- waiting
- UFC
- Days of our lives
-watching golf on television
- not getting enough sleep
- touch screen anything (sorry iPhone lovers)
- throwing away/ repeatedly intentionally hurting people you claim to love
- dishonesty/ disloyalty
- asking my parents for money
- poor grammar/ incorrect uses of words
- Valentine's Day
- feeling absolutely nothing at all
- the word moist
- the fact that there is so much hatred in this world

Gilda Radner

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."

I believe; yet I'm terrified of trust.

God has the grace,
we just have to be willing to trust Him.

the old me's dead and gone.

i've been driving down this road too long,
just trying to find my way back home.

the stakes are high, the water's rough.

don't you worry your pretty little mind,
people throw rocks at things that shine; and
life makes love look hard.

this love is ours.

seems like there's always someone who disapproves,
they'll judge it like they know about me and you.
and the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do,
the jury's out; but my choice is you.

broken girls and boys.

was it just like those promises that you made, on our last night?

small things amuse.

Also, my roommate just came home and as he opened the door and ran down the stairs he yelled, "B!!!!!! I JUST SAW A MIDGET!!!!! A REAL LIVE ONE IN SAFEWAY!" My response was something along the lines of "haha awesome K. first time ever seeing one"? Apparently he hasn't seen one since he was like 8 years old so it was a really big deal.
Pathetic as it may be, that was probably the best part of my entire day.

it's not unusual.

I'm not doing very good. But I am doing a very good job at avoiding talking about what's bothering me... in case you couldn't tell by my not cryptic song lyrics. I suppose I'm just afraid that once I start it'll all pour out and then I will be one giant mess.

I'll know when I get there.

it's hard to tell just where you're at,

when you're looking for somethin' that ain't on a map;

I just gotta believe it's down that road

s o m e w h e r e .

the things you miss when you're chasing dreams.

I don't know if it's worth it,
And I don't know if I'm good enough;
All I know is I'm givin' it all I've got.

you can't run away from yourself.

could you look me in the eye,
and tell me that you're happy now?

when all your lies become your truths.

don't just walk away,
pretending everything's okay
and you don't care about me.

pull me from that pedastol, I don't belong there.

I always said that I would make mistakes.
I'm only human and that's my saving grace.
I'll fall as hard as I try, so don't be b l i n d e d .
See me as I really am,
I have flaws and sometimes I even sin.

I'm only human and that's my saving grace.

One thing is clear, I wear a halo when you look at me; but standing from here, you wouldn't say so. You wouldn't say so if you were me. And I, I just want to love you. Oh I,
I just want to love you.

I wear a halo when you look at me.

Why do you put me on a pedastol?
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below.
So help me down, you've got it wrong.
I don't belong there.

why do you put me on a pedastol?

I never promised you a ray of light.
I never promised there'd be sunshine every day.
I gave you everything I have,
the good, the bad.

i really needed to hear this.

"forgiveness is not an occasional act;
it is a permanent attitude"

a girl like you.

it scares me because

i know what the world can do to a girl that

only sees beauty in it.