We choose our demise.

You know, we make these choices and we tell ourselves that it's for one reason or another. We tell ourselves that life is giving us these challenges and struggles but in reality, I think that we choose them. I think that we choose to live life the hard way. We tell ourselves that we don't want that, that we want a break, that it's not fair. But I think at the end of the day, to a certain degree we get off on it. We make these choices because we want to feel something. And then we can say, I'm strong and I've been through a lot and I'm invincible because nothing can destroy me while continuing this self-destructive cycle of doom. It's almost like an innate need to ensure that I am strong and that I can say I'm strong.