As we age.

II think it is so good for me to have other men treat me well. To know that there are more men out there like that. I like that D opens my door and buys my coffee and is genuinely nice to me. He's a gentleman and I find it so refreshing to spend time with men like that. 

The last few days he's been so good about me being sick. Last night he told me if I needed anything to let him know. It just feels nice to have people who are like me because even though he lives on the other side of the city, I genuinely think he'd come bring me whatever I asked for. And I would do the same. But I think that's rare. There aren't many people out there like that. 

The more time I spend with older men, the less interest I have in any even remotely close to my age. At this point, I don't even know if I'd consider someone younger than 30. That's 6 years age difference and it'd have to be someone pretty incredible to change my mind. I can't be bothered to put up with the immaturity or the partying. I want someone who's settled and grown up and has goals for their life but the ambition and the commitment to actually achieve those goals. If you're 30 years old and you have yet to achieve anything, what's the point? I don't want to babysit. I want a mutually exclusive relationship that's mutually beneficial. I want to build you up but I want him to build me up too. I think at this point, I've really started to change what I'm attracted to. I wouldn't say I only cared about looks but I will say that looks become less and less important to me. Neither DT or J are "my type" but there are many things I find attractive about them. At the end of the day it really is about how the other person treats you and what you can build together.