you are enough.

so i may have had a little breakdown today. and by little i mean like elephant tears alone in my condo. i think sometimes crying just fixes things. it releases something that writing can't. and by actually telling phlg i actually felt so much better. telling her that i'm trying so hard to get over him and i just want it to happen faster. she kept saying it's going to take time. and i know that. i think it's just hard because everything reminds me of him. everything. and that's really hard. i mean three years is a long time for someone to be the centre of your universe and it's hard to let it go overnight. and when i'm trying to be all strong and brave and courageous, i have to remember i'm only human. and these things take time. i feel like he has a piece of me. and gg made such a good point. he was like bb you can't let someone keep a piece of you. and he's right. the piece of me he has, i want it back. i know it takes time and i just have to remember to let everyone else in. blocking everyone off isn't going to help me move on. i have good friends, people that support me and if i don't have them involved, if i don't let them in, it'll take me so much longer to move on alone. but i need to remember that drinking, it's not the answer. getting so drunk i can barely function is not going to make me feel better; actually it's probably going to make me do something i regret. i don't know i think i just need to stop being so hard on myself. i don't need him. you got that sunshine, i don't need you. i am better off. and i can and breathe without you. and i can live my life without wondering what you think. silly bb, it's time to move on. just let it go. breathe. and be yourself again. remember when you were the girl who didn't need anyone? be that girl again, only keep people in your life. you don't have to need them, but want them in your life. stop trying to take on the world without any help. BREATHE. and just be yourself. stop trying to be strong all the time and just let go. stop trying to keep your cool all the time. just say what you think, do what you want, be who you are. that's more than enough. and for the people it's not enough for, well they aren't needed enough to be in your life.