At a loss for words.

I'm flustered. Things have been going really well with J lately. He's said some things that kind of melt my heart. Yesterday I was really flustered with him because he told me he'd stay to close with me because of the new bartender (who I don't like, definitely don't trust, and is kind of an idiot/ stress-case/ ass). Last night was way shittier than I expected, but I walked by the office and J was like I'm going home soon. And I was like PARDON ME. And he's like I'm sore, you'll be fine without me. I'm like oh remember yesterday when you said you'd stay to the end with me? He's like yeah but I'm not going to help clean.
I walked away. Later he did start doing some cleaning but he was speaking to the bartender like B will help you too with whatever you need. And I rolled my eyes at J and said oh will I? So J starts talking to me and he's like do you really want me to stay? And I was like well I'm obviously not happy about you leaving. He's like well I will if you are going to be upset about it. And I'm like I'm not upset, I'm just going to leave then you will have to come back and close. He's like please don't do that because then you'd be fired and it'd be a lose-lose situation. I didn't say a word I just raised my eyebrows and looked at him. He's like I recognize that'd be a much bigger loss for me than for you B because then I'd never have you around.
While I thought it was nice of him to openly admit that, he made a comment about feeling less bad because I had the next four days off which did not help to diffuse the situation.
The other night I had a day off and J was like why aren't you coming back tonight and I was like well because today was supposed to be my day off so I wasn't planning to be here at all but here I am. And he's like but who am I going to hang out with?
I think it's funny because he values my opinion. I know that he does. And I value his.
The other day he looked me up and down and said I like it.
Then a few days later I said I really don't like your outfit today and he's like Why?! While I said he didn't look bad, I explained my reasoning and asked him to change before he came back at night. I told him I'd prefer if someone told me when they thought I didn't look my best and he was like true, so he came back in a better suit. Then a few days ago I looked him up and down and pointed and said, I really like this one. He's like I know you've told me this before! So I appreciate that he remembers and values my opinion.
It's funny because T the other day also looked me up and down and was like you look great. And then he started laughing hahaha and I'm like why are you laughing? And he's like because that was so creepy the way I just did that. And I laughed so hard because I was like yes, yes it was.