I wish with all of my heart for you to be happy.

I've been laying in bed basically bawling for the last 2 hours. I'm watching one tree hill. I haven't watched it in a long time. It's hard for me to watch, especially these episodes. 

The combination of this show and the way that number twelve made me feel are the reason I believe in love, true love. I guess it's hard when you realize that you're gonna love someone forever who might not love you back. It's hard when you realize that you have to come to terms with the fact that every day for the rest of your life there is a piece of you that belongs to someone else. A piece of you that you can never get back. 

What am I supposed to do now?