Conflicted.

I wish there was some incredible sign. Something that told you what you were meant to do in life. It would almost be simpler if things were the way they were in Lois Lowry's 'The Giver'. Everything is set out for you without your control. Your whole life is planned out for you: your career, your marriage, your children. It would be so much easier if someone just told me what to do in life. If someone said, look you haven't wasted the last five years of your life, one day your degrees will come in handy. 

I don't want to be a teacher. Every time Ithink  about it, I think about how unhappy I think I would be as a teacher. I don't hate it but I don't love it. I don't know what I love. Or who I love or what I want.