picture perfect memories scattered all across the floor.

i'm not doing very good. if i'm honest i'm pretty broken about this whole situation. on friday he told me he doesn't know if he wants to be with me anymore. he's been so distant lately and usually when he gets like that i know he's just trying to be strong and work through things on his own. and i get it, so i just support him and wait for it to pass. but not this time, this time he took it too far. i just have felt so alone lately. then i really love weddings like i love love love them and i haven't been to one as a guest in about 2 years. and i was talking about how bad i wanted to go to one and he's like i know i know you do. (i knew his aunt was getting married.. hint. hint. dumbass). and really what happened is he was taking someone else. another girl, the only one that i hate. and he didn't have the courage to tell me he was going with her. so he just pretended he forgot about the wedding. then he out of nowhere told me he just didn't know if he wanted this anymore. so we fought for 3 hours and i told him to take his space. last night he called me at 1am and said i'm so sorry. i miss you. you're my everything. i'm just so sorry. i can't believe i did this. i can't live without you, i need you. so since i was in calgary with dad i went and saw him this morning. and he told me he went with her. i didn't know what to do. i just left.