I ask too much of you, please stop saying yes.

On Thursday, I stopped to pick up some cash. I stopped and I was in a bad mood. If I'm honest, I was annoyed about the whole Duke situation. It bothers me how much he's here for me but he will never let me be there for him. He is so incredibly hit and miss and it is frustrating to no end. Like Monday was honestly so perfect. And literally when I walk in his house every single time he's like, "DUKE LOOK WHO'S HERE!!!!!!!" But then I basically asked him to let me have Duke for the weekend and C was like yeah I think if S doesn't take him I have to stay there. And like to a certain degree I get it but like C doesn't want to go stay with Duke and she works like 12 hours today and tomorrow. I actually would have just gone to J's and marked and hung out with Duke all day today. I like dogs, I like spending time with Duke. I would've walked him because I wanted to, not because I expected anything.
So Thursday I didn't even go into the office. I literally waited for C to come out and when she did I was like hey can I have my cash. She's like yep are you okay? I just got your message. All I had said in my message was like when are you done work, I could really use a glass of wine with a friend tonight.
So we're standing outside the office talking and J walks out and taps me on the head with papers. And then again and again and again probably 6 or 7 times. I didn't say a thing or react in any way shape or form so he walked away. Then I went to the washroom before I was getting ready to leave and he says, "well aren't you just a ray of sunshine". I just looked at him and rolled my eyes. His response to my eye roll was, "and by ray of sunshine I mean the EXACT OPPOSITE of a ray of sunshine".  I think what annoys me most about him calling me out for being grumpy is that he is probably the MOST emotional mood swinging human in history. He is sooo grumpy some days and I rarely make a point to throw it in his face and I am never like that and the one day I am, he makes a point to throw it in mine. And I guarantee he was doing it for a reaction and to try and make me laugh but he just drives me crazy.
I was thinking about it though and I've been looking for an Arsenal jacket. He's going to an Arsenal game tomorrow (dick) so against my better judgement I sent him a message apologizing for being grumpy but and recognizing it was too much to ask but asking him to bring me back a specific jacket if he came across one and then I'd give him the cash when he got back. I also included that if he couldn't it was no big deal and I hope he enjoyed the wine.
I think the hardest part for me is that I just don't understand how we go from Monday to Thursday. And I know I've been excessively emotional this week but it's just annoying. I just don't understand how we go from him telling me to come hang out and talking and laughing and feeling such an immensity to barely speaking.