I want you to be strong for me.

HP and CR got engaged. I'm happy for HP because this is what she's wanted for a very long time. She seems much happier in this relationship than she did when she was with BN. 

Despite my happiness for them, I hate when people my age get engaged. I hate the notion that someone has found someone that they want to spend their entire life with. They are okay to commit fully to someone. It just makes me feel behind. I know that I'm not and getting married at 22 is the right time for some people. You know when you're in junior high and high school, being married at 21, 22, 23 seems reasonable. And then you are 18 finishing high school with a boy you love and you can see being ready to marry him in 3 or 4 years. And then you're 21 or 22 and you are unsure of how you got here so fast; you're not ready to be married. And I think about how alone I am. Not that I need to get married right now but when you don't even have a prospective relationship in sight it's frustrating. You see how happy people can be in a partnership and it's something to be desired. 

At the end of the day all of the most successful people in life always talk about love being the most important thing. It's a driving and connecting force in our lives. 

And I'm strong, I know that I will be just fine and one day I will figure it out. Sometimes I just don't want to be the strong one. I want someone to be strong for me.