Hating you is the most exhausting thing I've ever had to do.

I needed to hear that from PL last night so embarrassingly badly. It's pathetic I know but I just have never been the girl guys like. And I needed to hear that someone else. I needed to know that there can be someone else. At the same time it made me realize how damaged I am. How heartbroken I am. I don't see myself that way and the possibility of a relationship is just not even fathomable. The possibility of another boy is unfathomable. I just love that boy and I've loved him for so long I can't even comprehend it anymore. It is immeasurable, indescribable, it simply is one of those things that cannot be explained.