benefit of the doubt.

phlg and i had like the crazziesst conversation last night. like actually. my bbm can only keep record from like after 1pm it was so intense. we talked about giving people second chances and like relationships and all the crazy things we've both told ourselves to ensure we believe we can be happy without someone else. and it reminded me that her and i are more alike that i recognize sometimes. we both have been so hurt that we push people out of our lives if that have too much influence on us. we push away people that care about us because it always ends it hurt. and we both have mad trust issues. i realized myself telling her things that i should really do myself and if i don't then what do my words mean. i'm just a hypocrite.
she told me that she feels like when we aren't joking around that i just knock her down. and i was kinda choked she said that. i was like no i'm being honest. i'm honesty sucks sometimes and sometimes we are both hurt by each others honesty. and yeah i know her biggest flaws(and she knows mine) but i also know he best attributes as well and i love her in spite of those things because that's what best friends do.
i mean how many people in your life can you say man no matter what i know she(he) has MY best interest at heart. it's naive to believe that most people have your best interest at heart because in reality most people are inherently selfish. and i told her i'm not going to sugarcoat it, and i said you know that no matter what i say or do, no matter how much it hurts you, i really have your best interest at heart. and she was like yeah i know you do, i'm sorry; you're right if your best friend can't tell you the truth, who can. best friends always want to give the benefit of the doubt.
i said maybe you should give someone other than a best friend the benefit of the doubt.
and she said maybe you should too.